Lisa Counts

Monday, February 19, 2024

Marilyn-
I have not stopped thinking about you.
You were my only true friend. I have tons of friends just like you did. We had that special gift of unconditional friendship.
I’ve been thinking on why we didn’t stay in touch with each other. I wasn’t far and always go by Bicknell!
I’ve never had a tattoo but I’m looking for one. I found one that has your initial M. On each side has features with a halo above. Plus a little heart underneath-
You are my guardian angel just like you are with your daughter and those brothers of yours.
I pray you are at peace-I hope to see you again. Just so we can hang out together.
This has been devastating to me-
I miss you so much my friend.
Lisa
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I did forget you loved ?? ????
Love you

Lisa Bicknell-Counts

Monday, February 5, 2024

Oh My Sweet Friend—
I am having a hard time with your passing. I can’t imagine how your daughter feels. I wished I met her. Maybe one of these days I can meet her. Her memorials made me cry. Especially since she didn’t have the chance to see you at your services. If I would have known, I would have been there for you. You have no idea how much I’ve missed talking to you or when you went shopping in my closet. You always looked better in my clothes than I did. Especially when you would strut around in the hallways of schools with your huge smile. You knew you looked good.
I thought about you all night after I found your Dads obituary with your married last name. I never knew you would leave Texas. I only wished I found you earlier. I literally have looked for you for 35 - 40 years. I’ve been looking under the wrong last name and in Texas. I knew your sweet Mom moved to the Midwest.
I did put your picture on Facebook under our class of ‘79 in Amarillo. A lot of people have responded on my post and are very sad as well. You have not been forgotten from your Amarillo friends.
When I saw your picture you have got changed one bit. Pretty as ever.
Matt, I remember when Marilyn did the spit thing. You were such a blondie. I thought it was gross but she knew she got under your skin.
When I was in Amarillo I drove by y’all’s house on Astoria wishing I knew where y’all moved to.
If y’all would please email me.
I would absolutely love chatting with y’all especially your daughter. I have nothing but great memories of Marilyn.
MES aka Mess-
I love you Marilyn and I’m so sad of you passing-I can’t stop the tears from falling down on my face .
Lisa

Lisa Bicknell-Counts

Sunday, February 4, 2024

I was Marilyn’s best friend when she lived in Amarillo-I have searched everywhere for her. I finally remembered her Dads name. I personally thought her last was Grant.
I’m so very very sad to read this obituary-
My maiden name was Bicknell-I remember Granny, and her brothers.
Michael and Mathew.
If y’all read this-
My thoughts are with you.
I sure loved her-

Lisa Bicknell-Counts

Sunday, February 4, 2024

I was Marilyn’s best friend when she lived in Amarillo-I have searched everywhere for her. I finally remembered her Dads name. I personally thought her last was Grant.
I’m so very very sad to read this obituary-
My maiden name was Bicknell-I remember Granny, and her brothers.
Michael and Mathew.
If y’all read this-
My thoughts are with you.
I sure loved her-

Brianna Workman

Saturday, September 10, 2022

I miss you mom, I love you so much. I’ve been thinking about you a lot here lately. I’ve gotten married and I wish sometimes you were to walk me through hard times with marriage. Good advice. I’d take your word over anyones, you’d have your best intention at heart. You’d want what’s best for me. I know it. Now, you know I wouldn’t listen to you the first time or second and maybe the third time BUT I’d would at least come back and tell you that you were right. You now that. :) I’d hate to admit that you were right BUT you would tell me that you told me so. I would take it and we would talk over a cigarette and some coffee because I would come over in the mornings. I would.

My wedding is going to be in February (I already got married and eloped) AND I know you’d help me, you’d probably have the whole thing planned last year. You were VERY successful in those kind of things.

I’m sorry I haven’t been on here in a long time but I’ve let things escape me…eh like life, like my sanity, my peace and my independence the past few years BUT fake till you make it, that’s what you’ve always said. However you’d love to learn that I don’t always do that because I recognize my emotions and talk about them!! No way! Right?! I know. It’s so good but yes mom, only sometimes do I fake it till I make it.

I’ve had some drinks tonight and I was thinking about you. I love and miss you dearly. I’m gonna spend sometime with my husband! <3

Brianna Frederick

Thursday, February 15, 2018

Hey Mom,

I am having a really hard time. I'm empty inside with a smile on my face, of course. Fake it until you make it? Right? That's what you taught me. The older I get the harder it is..to fake. I walk around with my head down watching one foot go in front of the other.. right, left, right. left.. I guess I am feeling defeated. I'd give anything to hear your voice. I'd give anything to see what kind of parent you would've been past my teens..I was 15 and I hate how strong I am.. I can't cry.. I'd give anything Mom. Anything.. I can't grieve.. i'd give anything to go to your funeral.. I'm sorry Dad did not let me go...

Brianna Frederick

Monday, December 12, 2016

Hey Mom,
Reading back on the things I have written for you in the past blows my mind. I'd like to say I matured but ONLY just a little bit. I am always going to be a little kid at heart. Maybe one day that may fade.. However I am writing you tonight because I am going through a lot emotionally and mentally, not so much physically..just a gaining weight.. Funny Haha, right? It doesn't bother me though. It is what it is when it it comes to my weight, it comes and it goes..

Emotionally? I am breaking down, and I am becoming numb.. the older I get the harder it is to deal with when it comes to your death. The pain is easier to deal with as each day passes by but it will never go away.. I remembered the time your boss bought a disney world ticket and at the last minute you said we couldn't go because you were sick knowing that wasn't the truth and as a 6 year old little girl I knew that and thats the part of it all that bothers me.. I remember as a kid and seeing those commercials for amusement parks, resorts (specifically 1-800-Sandals) and disney world and those things were always on the wish list of mine but never wanted it bad enough to ask.. but anyways since then Ive always watched those commercials as a kid and thinking about it as if I was there and those commercials were my trip! isn't that sad? Even as a 6 year old little girl thats supposed to be getting her hands dirty and her knees all scratched up I was making sure you were alright and YOU became my motive everyday.

That one day that WE argued before school and I left without saying I love you and walked to my bus stop my bus and I sat there hearing my bus driver call me to get on the bus but I knew that I couldn't leave without saying I love you so I just sat there. The bus left.. I walked home and walked through the door and you asked me why I wasn't at school I then replied with my face in my hands crying "I couldn't leave you without saying I love you" You gave me a hug (Which were always the best by the way) you got ready for work and then took me to school BUT of course when we were in the car we sang everything ... from The Judds, to Shaggy, Paula Abdul.. You name it.. SALT N PEPA..

I remember waking up everyday to GOOD MORNING SUNSHINE and hearing that will never be the same from anyone else.

Ive dreamt about you 3 times since you passed, almost 7 years in 2017 of July. IF only I cold relive them or see you more often Id be a much happier person.. I used to be so happy, I used to be so loving, I used to be so about me... I am about nothing and nobody anymore... Im tired.. of it all. I am

Brianna

Sunday, April 19, 2015

Hey Mom,
I decided to move back to Omaha, NE and be around family, BUT I do have a girlfriend, her name is Heather. I truly love her to pieces, I wish you were her to meet her. She is defiantly a keeper, she is level headed, he is DEFIANTLY beautiful, oh boy is she drop dead or what. She knows a lot about you due to I talk about you almost all of the time. You are indeed irreplaceable, you are also a one of kind. It is funny when people pass, the one that are close never forget who you are or were for that matter. I notice that you're slowly disappearing in others lives but NOT mine. I love you and I miss you dearly. Ill come back and tell you more about what is going on. Got to go PACK! LOVE YOU !

Your Daughter

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Momm,
I had a dream last night that i woke up from a dream that everything was just a dream and it wasnt real, like you dying, me getting a horrible car accident, dad, everything. I woke up.. Ran straight into the living room to see you sitting there.. I about just tackled you onto he floor i was so happy that you were alive. (: Then to only wake up in reality and it was just a lie..
I love you mom.
See you soon!
Your sunshine Brianna.

Your daughter

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Hey Mommy.
I love you an i miss you so much. I have been so sad lately, committing suicide has been on my mind. I wanna say I won do it but i get to a point where i want to ...Just to see you, but whats funny, thats not the way to get to you and that i have to wait for gods approval to leave this world and go to wheres new. I miss you so much I LOVE YOU.. I can say that enough.. I love you. I hope you know that!!

Brianna

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Hey mom,
Im in school in personal finance and im doing not good, it really difficult, he talks really fast, i dont as for help and when i do he answers it then walks away. I know that i have to be patient with everybody and to know that the world does not stop for my grief. Im trying my best to achieve all my goals in school. Starting a new school called horizon, i dont want to go, but it will help me in school, and my grades. I miss you so much. It has been really hard with out you here with me or to hear your voice in the morning, or even the kiss on my forehead when we get in a argument about nothing important. Because we knew it was silly. I had dreams about you very so often, but when i do i have a great beautiful day because it seems to me and my mind that you have never passed away i get all happy and all excited even though i know you did pass away 1 year, 3 months, 18 days ago. It does not seem that long ago. I try so hard not to cry for you, but i cant hold it sometimes. Its so hard to be here and your not here with me. Dad is not easy to talk to, at all. I mean you would know? huh?! Its not easy at all. I miss you terribly. I mean im driving myself insane. I mean we were closer then you can even imagine,i cant even sleep. Tell me why it had to be you, out of all people that couldnt last one more day, no mom im not being selfish. I just cant really live a day without you, but suicide is a selfish thing, i cant do it. I dont want to ruin others lives. BUT I MISS YOU. there are no words that escribe on how it leaves me empty inside. all i want is you back being a snuggle bunny, my motavation. My everything. With out you i cant function. I need you, i want you, cant you see that this is killing me its very well eating me alive. I mean i found my happiness in you, you made me want to take a ride to the top of every rainbow. I guess i got it bad huh? Or have it made. ? huh? Everytime i listen to Dido-White Flag i think of you and how that i am not going to be the person to have that white flag over my door, and that i might as well go down with this ship. I know i left alot of destruction between us, and all the trouble i caused. I should have came home when you called me to come home. Im sorry that i didnt. I should have been there when you called like i did everytime i did before why!? I DIDNTDO IT this time??! The answers that i will never know. That is now, way over my knowledge. I cant deal with this, although i do..For you...I will not surrender. BUT only for you. I cant say this enough but i miss you, i love you. I want to end my life to see you sometimes, but i dont...unfortunatly.. I love you

Brianna

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Hey Mommy.
I just got my finals in school turned in. I'm doing so much better in school now. I guess its cause i listen, and actually pay attention annnd stay awake. I like this new school im in, but there is a lot of school drama. My name is already in somebodies mouth. It gets real old. I miss you a lot. Christmas is in 4 more days.. Its going to be my first Christmas without you and im going to miss the early presents from you. Dad is happy, and im very delighted that he is happy. Its just like we switched roles, he got really happy then i got really down, it was i was really happy and he was really poopy diaper. (: And me and David are going good so far. (: and good in the future also mommy. You would so like him, he is just our kinda crazy. (: Hes the one that would make you laugh, smile, and stand by you, if he knew you. && one day he will know you. :) Lately, i have just a big knot in my stomach and it hurts and its from stress, and from school, and missing you. I think about you all the time. Saturday night i cried my self asleep with your photo of me and you in a frame in my arms and david came to check on me cause he was down stairs watching tv, and i havnt been down there in a bout an hour so he was just a wandering . (: && woke me up and poked me to wake me up. Of course i jumped, i was just a tad scared. And came to my face and asked if i was okay, and he asked if i missed you and if that was why i was upset and i said yes. And he gave me a kiss on my forehead. I just need to clear my mind.. I have my mind and thoughts all in one file cabinet. && i need to sit in the middle of the living room, and organize like you did with your paper work from melrose. Lol. I miss VA im homesick alot. I wanna go back home soo bad, maybe cause so many people would understand me more and much better then poeple here. I mean they have been there done that. Buuut they dont know what i think emontionally, and why i think about those thoughts. Its like i have to start fresh and get rid of the old and start freshhh. Look im getting ready to leave school. I love you and miss you dearly. P.s. I wish i could get rid of the old times and start fresh with you mommy. I love you. (: Im going crazy justa thinking about you not being there when i get home. (: I love you again. <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Brianna

Friday, December 9, 2011

Hey Mom,
I miss you so much. I know your watching me type this to you. I hope you have the answers to my prayers, and the questions that i may never know the answer too. I have a boyfriend now, his name is David, He is 19. He is helping me and dad so much. He has a baby, his name is Dyllan Jay, he is about 8 months. He is so cute. I think he is the one for me, he comforts me when i miss you and listens to my stories about you. Like he knows, and he was there. Mommy, i dont know to let you go even if i tried. I dont want to wake up in the mornings anymore, knowing i dont get to hear the "Good Morning Sunshine" ooor that smile i get to see before you leave for work. The smell of your J-lo Glow perfume in the morning. I miss your touch the most, i cherish every moment still to this day. I love you more everyday, that each second goes into a minute and how that goes into hours, that you have left this cold world and went where is much better for. I watched "Casper the friendly ghost" A couple weeks ago, You remember the beginning? And how the mom passed away, then at the halloween party the daughter was having a good time and the father didnt know if he could do it by himself and how he was scared, then all of the sudden, the mother came in the window as an angel would, but she was in a red dress and the curly hair, it reminded me of your perm back in the day, & i imagined that it was you talking to dad, telling him, that he strong enough and that he can do it and not to be sad. Mom i know you loved dad as much as you loved me, but he misses you. && it isnt easy for him at all, we cant seem to get along, i think its because im mad at him for things he doesnt even remember, or recall.. I dont wanna bring up the past, or make it look like im begging for attention, i mean i am. It isnt the same with YOU MOMMY ! Your my mom, He is my dad, my father figure. I dont know why its so hard to deal with this, i mean i dont even wanna do anything dad tells me too because it isn't you. Im selfish over you mom, i dont want other mother figures in my life, well im pretty sure you remember Rana, she still around i really like her mom, she even said she wont replace you, She means alot to me too. She is like the sister i never had, Oh and speaking of sisters, Brittani is coming this christmas, OH and i plan having a memorial for you mommy, im going to sing Celine Dion- My heart Will Go On. Annnd im going to play a ton of your favorite songs. Shoop by salt n pepa. All I Have-JLo. Joss Stone. Bread. Nelly. Martina Mcbride. Rascal Flats. OH MY GOODNESS Im going to miss you so much, and i want you to know that i love you, im in study hall, and i think i have to go. I love you mom. Forever. (:
P.S. I know your not gonna write back so im going to tell myself that you just know with all your heart that i really love you. <3

Mary E. Powell Booles

Saturday, October 9, 2010

So Sorry for your loss.
My hopes are that all the good memories will be at the top of the lists and the family will heal and be OK.
May God be with you
Mary E. Powell Boolels

Matthew Sullivan

Friday, August 13, 2010

What to say about my big sis. It was not always easy being her little brother. She used to sit on my chest and let spit drip from her mouth and suck it back up, just before it hit my face. She used to put her entire mouth over my nose and blow. If I did anything to hurt her in any way, she would ball up her fist and hit me over and over until SHE felt better. She was a tempest of misdirected emotions. But she was my big Sis and I loved her dearly. Marilyn, your little brother loved you and “Me too.”

Joanie Wilkinson

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Marilyn,

You' will always be my buddy
You will always be my friend
You were always "real" with me
Except right at the end

I wish you would have called me
You know that I'd be there
I'll always love you chickie
And forever I will care!!

Now you are finally happy
No pain or heart aches there
Just always please remember
How many people cared!

Rest in peace, I love you forever and a day!

Joanie

Michael Siner

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Marilyn, we had some amazing times, you will be missed more than I can put into words.

Melrose Staff

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Marilyn, you were a great boss and a great friend! It hasn't been the same since you've been gone, sadly missed but never forgotten! We love you!!

Melrose Maintenance and Cleaning Staff

Sherry Figgatt

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Rest in peace Marilyn, we love you and will miss you!!

Cheryl Ann Figgatt

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Marilyn, I will miss you!!

Sherry Grayson

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Rest in peace Marilyn. You have alot of people who loved you, you will be missed!

Ron Figgatt

Thursday, August 12, 2010

May you rest in peace Marilyn.

Bree, if you ever need anything, let us know. We love you and we loved your mom.

Nancy Wilburn

Thursday, August 12, 2010

God Bless you Marilyn, you were a wonderful beautiful person with an amazing daughter!! May you rest in peace!!

Jamelia

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

I miss you so much , you was a second mom to me, we laughed, and cried, and had a great tyme. Bre and i miss so much u couldnt imagine, but now i know ur safe up above watcha over brie, u will always be loved and never forgotten, u made millions of people smile. you gave your daughter the best of everything u did for her, and she and i loved u for it, i miss u alot ms. marilyn, and i wish u was here

Kimberly, Cameron and Jalen Green

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

When I met you, you made me laugh so hard stating that I did not sound the way I looked on the phone. And from that a wonderful relationship was formed. Marilyn you have a heart of gold and now you have the wings to add to it. You were there for me and my boys when it felt like the world was closing in on me. So now I will be there for Brianna whenever she needs me. Oh the conversations we had (priceless) when you moved I felt like I lost one of my best friends. Now I know you will always look down on me and the boys. We used to sit on your porch and talk and laugh I used to tell you that, "if only you could have met my mom, she would love you." Now you get to, can you tell her hi for me and give her a hug. Love you (wink)

Mike & Cindy Humphries

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

You will be missed. You and your family will always be in our thoughts and prayers.

Sharon Church

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

I HAVE SO MANY MEMORIES OF U AND BRIE!! WE SPENT ALOT OF TIME TOGETHER !! WE AND OUR KIDS SHARED SO MUCH!! WE HAD SOME GOOD TIMES!!! WE SHARED TIME WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS!! BRIE IS SUCH A BEAUTIFUL GIRL GUESS SHE GOT THAT FROM U!! NOW U R AT PEACE AND HAPPINESS WITH THE LORD!! NOW YOUR PAIN IS GONE!! U WILL BE MISSED!!! WITH LOVE SHARON CHURCH

Vickie Gann

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Dear friend and past fellow employee aka "Flo" you will never know how much I miss you. We had alot of laughs in such a short period of time. I'll always remember you calling me some mornings and singing "You are my sunshine" to me. I am glad that I was able to give you and Brianna some "Happy " in your lives.

Your Daughter

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Hey. I love you. Miss you so much. You will always be in my heart no matter what.

Candise Dungan Willard

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

I will never forget you and the memories we shared! Watching our kids play together and having fun! Listening to your impressions of Madea and Ms Swan! Taking the kids to the movies. You trying to protect me against him and always being there for me and my boys!! I love you Marilyn and will always be there for your baby girl!
You are now able to be you and SMILE always! God has you right where you need to be and know that so many people love you so very much!!
You had a heart of gold!

Candise Dungan Willard

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

So loved and missed!

Jim & Gerri Carinio

Monday, August 9, 2010

Dear Cousin Donnie & Family,
I am deeply sadden to hear of your loss and regret that I was never able to meet your beautiful daughter, but I am sure she was as beautiful inside as she was outside. Someday I will get to meet her in a better place. Blessings to you and yours in this time of loss.

All our Prayers and Love
Jim and Gerri Carinio

Mindy McElyea Gant

Friday, August 6, 2010

Dear friend aka marley-harley-farley-parley, I am thankful to have had you in my life. I will always remember singing "rocking with the rhythm of the rain" and "can't touch this " with you ( you always knew all the words to teach me) , going to basketball games, my dad always saying to you Hello Ms. Beautiful and you cracking up, laughing and giggling ( i can still hear your laugh in my head) seeing you holding your sweet baby girl, the joy on your face with her in your arms. I love and weep for you my sweet friend and though I am so sad I cannot see you again I remind myself you are with God in the most beautiful place.

Joe Morgan

Friday, August 6, 2010

We smiled and laughed together our Senior year, you were such a special person in my heart. I will always remember you Marilyn. I know you have peace now and that the Lord holding you tightly in his arms.